From Belgium With Love
I often think about what choices make you happy. Their are the choices that make you happy in the moment but later all your sadness comes back and overwhelms your short term happiness and their are the choices that don’t make you happy in the moment but make you happy in the long run and your problems actually dissipate in your world of happiness. What choices are more important the ones that effect you this very second or the ones that effect you months from now. I feel like often the right choices are the ones that don’t seem to make you happy or arnt fun I guess you could say but I started to look at it like my grades I can dick around and have fun and not do my assignments and barley pass the semester or fail or I can skip the fun and do my assignments and get and A instead of doing credit recover like I am now. I wish I was more thoughtful in my earlier years. I sometimes wonder if I’d be a happier person or I would be more out together.
What stresses me the most is the fact someone is becoming more for than me the fact someone is getting to train harder than me the fact that they don’t have to go to 7 hours of bullish it the fact that they can consume more calories than me and they get more building blocks than me so they get stronger I hate how much time school takes away from me I can’t e the best when I have to wake up and go to this bullshit I hate it I want to be able to workout 4 times a day not 3 short workouts each day I feel like I’m falling behind in the world I feel my pull-up numbers decreasing my dips decreasing my agility my speed my straight I feel like an average person. This is what I stress about. I wish I could accept I won’t be the best.
We all have friends but, who are the real ones we all have the few that we call best friends I love my best friends because they are my best friends and they don’t talk shit behind my back I think the real best friend is the one that won’t ever speak of your secrets even to his best friend or even when you aren’t their friend anymore. Don’t let someone claim you as their best friend when they won’t treat or you won’t treat them like one. 90% of your friends you can’t trust 9% of them you think you can trust 1% of them you can trust. I often wonder who the 1% is or the 2% is but I really don’t know because I think that 9% I can trust when really they just talk shit about me. Do I even have a friend I can trust? Am I someone’s true friend the friend that no one has seen cry other than myself am I that friend that will run your back when you cry and tell you it’s alright. Are you that friend the “best friend” I remember after one very sad moment in my life and I had called Austin and I called him crying and I asked if I could see him that’s all I said he said yes I drove over and saw him and when I walked in I fell to my knees and stuffed my head into his chest and cried and cried he rubbed my back and didn’t say a word he just held me in one of the saddest moments of my life. He didn’t even ask what happened he knew he didn’t need to say anything but after that day I knew he was one of my best friends,I cry when I think of this moment because it makes me happy that someone could see me at my worst. That’s a best friend.
Sometimes I wonder if I should have this as my background because when I’m not with you It just makes me miss you more and more and more.
2 of my friends got hurt today from the looks of their tumblr posts and I hate seeing my Girl friends get hurt I wish their was more respectful and caring guys out their, like what makes it so hard for them to just do the right thing and back up the shit they say with actions. When you get in a relationship it’s a commitment to trust each other and to build love for one another I don’t see the point in any of it. I was like one of those guys some time ago yea I picked up a few good skills but until my first serious relationship I realized I had no skills that mattered or experience that matter I was clueless about what a real relationship was like and it’s a learning process but these guys don’t seem willing to learn only willing to fuck. I’m not saying a relationship is about breaking up and moving on to something different and applying what you know but I think some guys should realize that they are clueless about what love is.
Maria Rockwell don’t reblogg so much shit because when you do j have to scroll down 20 pages to see what my gf posted
Nothing better than getting on tumblr and scrolling down seeing a bunch of sweet posts about you from your girl. Ahhhhh yea me like.
Let’s all just take a minute to realize that I’m the luckiest girl in the world and found the greatest guy.
Ahhhh she so sweet!
Starting to feel like I’m not as great as you said
I can’t wait till lunch because then I can kiss you again and again.
You lips on mine in the morning and your hands on my chest best way to start my day.